"Today, the reason we haven't found our grail, the key to who we are as women, is because we look for it in worlds of false power, the very worlds that took it away from us in the first place. Neither men nor work can restore our lost scepter. Nothing in this world can take us home. Only the radar in our hearts can do that, and when it does,... 'We will light up like lamps, and the world will never be the same again.' " ~Marianne Williamson
The sacred feminine I feel, embodies the qualities of wisdom, beauty, and compassion. Within each of us, she also embodies softness, trusting, allowing, and connecting with our intuition, feelings, heart. She is the creative power that destroys old forms and brings new ones into being. Whether we are women or men, I feel the honouring and balancing of this feminine within us, and on this lovely planet, is what is being called for at this time. In my own life, learning to honour my feminine has been a healing and sacred journey over these past 10 years that continues today...
It began with a wake up call in 1998, that I was seriously ill with a tumour in my second chakra area. The centre of creativity and female reproduction... oh, how the body never lies! This news, and the awareness that this tumour was literally bleeding the life force out of me, was shattering. Thankfully so. In spite of feeling afraid and weak, in that moment I also felt great relief... as in, I wasn't imagining things, and that I was struggling. Soon after this, I had a lightning bolt of fierce clarity - that denying my feminine was literally killing me. I knew this with a calm certainty, that resonates from that place of deep cellular knowing. I also knew that I needed to reclaim my feminine in order to live and beyond that, to be truly happy in this life. To create the life that I'd always imagined as a little girl.
Up to that point, as an adult, I'd denied her, denied her truth. In fact I had the thinking that what I liked and where I felt good, didn't really matter... that life essentially was about "working hard' and "being good"... obviously reflective of the work ethic of a struggling, newly immigrant family. But my illness, was an opening for me, and an opportunity to see that life really was about 'more', IF we chose it... it provided an opening to learn that life is indeed about feeling good and doing what brings us joy, in the highest, most empowered sense.
So I began to extricate myself from the life I'd created, moving at times with the trusting, intuitive openess of a child, and at other times with great doubt and fear. Not a straight line path, but a back and forth, zig-zagging one... smile. Each time I doubted and made resultant fear-based choices, I experienced energetically expensive 'lessons'. What I learned through this is that once we change or become aware of a truth, we can no longer go back, the river has moved on.... there is no fitting back into the box. Thankfully : ) no matter how hard we might try.
I've learned on my path, that nurturing and honouring the feminine takes constant and gentle care... and that my feminine needs my masculine and all masculine to be strong, to take care of her and provide a safe, strong container for her in the world. And I need to honour my feminine by giving her the space to open, feel, express, let go, and simply be. The hardness in our western culture can be draining to the feminine over time, for men and women alike. And I've felt intuitively, that the incidence of breast and other female organ cancers in our culture, are due in part to the denied or repressed feminine. This denial and resultant blocked, unexpressed energy and resentment, build up in the body... as I had experienced. The feminine needs to be lovingly and gently tended, like a flower. Listened to and supported by the strong masculine, so that she feels safe to relax and open.
It is time to fully honour the sacred feminine on this planet and within each of us, and to receive the grace and healing of that. And going forward, let's create together in new, healthier ways, within relationship and in the natural world around us. Balancing the masculine and feminine within ourselves, through heart, is what is being called for on this planet now. Will you join me in heeding this call, friends?
My feminine thanks you for listening : )